ok, so I have decided that I don't need a crush or anyother idea about boys anymore. Eventually i will get married and I will have a husband. I thought about it and I was thinking, "God knows my plans for the future. I want to travel the world at somepoint and be a missionary."

So then I got to thinking that if God wanted to be a missionary then I wouldn't need to start thinking about guys... right? All my friends have boyfriends, but I don't. I see them cuddling together and hanging out and going out and bowling or shopping together. I guess I havn't really thought about what I wanted to do about dating till the past couple of days. I'm 16 ya know.... the right time for girls to be dating isn't it?

I have a friend from summer camp named Cyrus. He calls me every other day just to chat. He usually calles me around 8:30 p.m and we chat till about 10:30. (talk about the phone bill). We always talk about the things that I bet most teens face. It just surprises me how realistic we can become when we talk about the reality issues.

Anyways, what i'm trying to say is.... when we have conversations we always end up talking about how we both want to wait till we are old enough before we start dating again. One of the things we have in common is the fact that when we start to date other people we wanted to make sure that the person we start dating is someone we can see a long time relationship and not just a 2 week date.

Don't worry (katie) we agreed that we wouldn't date each other. Thats fine with me bacuse i would feel so uncomfertable dating a close friend of mine that i've had for 7 years. Besides he's more the bad boy image then I want. I'm happy the way I am.