Yesterday was very... sad. I didn't know if things could get any better, but a great freind of mine reassured me it would. See, My great grandmother passed away. I was very upseet about it. Then my mum left me a text message saying "the wedding is off". I can still picture the words and how my heart felt like it stopped beating for a second. Mum not getting married? Its crazy to think about. They were supposed to get married this August, a couple of weeks after I get out of Camp. I felt bad all day. But in the morning, I was walking down the hall way, when my friend Dean. S told me that I have other things to e happy about. " like what?" I said.
"Well, you still have football and sports"
"yeah I know"
"And you still have friends that love you!"
"I know. I also have school to" And thats when I cought myself. Was I bein sarcastic when I said that?

With all that Dean.S said, it made me think... a lot. It might not have seemed like a big deal to others, but to me it made my Monday, a not so bad day after all.

I thought about how m mum must be feeling today, horrible. A loss in the family now her dilema. But I did pray hard for her all day.

So instead of going to supper last night, I went and sat on a hill thats by the crawfish river. The water was streaming fast because of a recent flooding overflow, and the birds were chirping in the distnace. Just me and nature, its what I like best. So I sat there thinking...hard. I have to change the way I persieve things. I have to learn to accept God in my everyday life, but why is that so hard for me?

I guess I'm just rambling on.. I have to get back to my work, and pretend to look busy. Have a great Tuesday everyone!