PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!


hey guys,


I just got back from the basketball tournement that was held at Andrews University. I also recieved news that a lady i used to take care of passed away while I was gone. Her funeral was this afternoon.I never got to say good-bye. I just want to cry. This lady- her name was margie. She was the sweetest person ever.About 5 years ago she had a stroke. That left her left side paralized so she couldn't do much. I would spend the summer of my freshman year watching her and we would always watch the "lifetime" channel and "wheel of fortune". i do miss her dearly. I know that one day I WILL see her in Heaven.

Another dissapointing thing that happend to me today was that my step dad just packed up his things and left for colerado or something. I miss him, but I am also thinking "what have I done?" My real dad was a jerk and i never got to have a fatherly figure. Every Christmas i would go see Santa and he would ask me what I wanted. I said "i want a daddy". Now i'm thinking, what did i do to make my step dad not love me anymore. Am I a selfish kid that a dad can't love? i feel so hurt and betrade. Today clearly isn't my day. I sat in my room and cried. Satan kept coming in my head and saying things like nobody loves me, and that I will never have a dad. I feel rejected and ...... you probably cant tell but I am crying as I am writing this. I do believe that i'm alone now. I barly see my mum as it is. I am truly realizing that I don't have a dad anymore.

-Carly