So i've been thinking lately. what is going to happen to me when i graduate high school? I will admit that I am more excited to work at Summer camp then Graduation itself, but i don't think that reality has truly kicked in yet.

Once I graduate, i won't be able to go to college because of costs and Citizenship, I won't be able to get a job because I'm not a full American yet. deep inside I feel that after camp I will be forgotten about. Like nobody will care what heppens to me once I leave W.A. I plan on attending church and all, but I don't want to live my life as a failure to get a further aducation, I don't want to be the person people see around doing nothing at all.

A little while ago I was threatened to go back to Australia. Yes I will be 18 in April, but the thought still haunts me. If I go back then I really won't be able to see anyone agian. I think that I am just more confused then ever. I could work (volenteer) at the new conference building. That way I will still be by the people I love, or I could move to another state and work as a volenteer teachers Aid.

I guess I just needed to get out thoughts that are truly bothering me as of right now. I don't consider myself out of the woods yet. by that i mean... i have to take things one at a time. Graduation is the next mile stone in my life and i cant take it forgranted.

Venting is ok, right?

Any advice?