Yesterday was very... sad. I didn't know if things could get any better, but a great freind of mine reassured me it would. See, My great grandmother passed away. I was very upseet about it. Then my mum left me a text message saying "the wedding is off". I can still picture the words and how my heart felt like it stopped beating for a second. Mum not getting married? Its crazy to think about. They were supposed to get married this August, a couple of weeks after I get out of Camp. I felt bad all day. But in the morning, I was walking down the hall way, when my friend Dean. S told me that I have other things to e happy about. " like what?" I said.
"Well, you still have football and sports"
"yeah I know"
"And you still have friends that love you!"
"I know. I also have school to" And thats when I cought myself. Was I bein sarcastic when I said that?

With all that Dean.S said, it made me think... a lot. It might not have seemed like a big deal to others, but to me it made my Monday, a not so bad day after all.

I thought about how m mum must be feeling today, horrible. A loss in the family now her dilema. But I did pray hard for her all day.

So instead of going to supper last night, I went and sat on a hill thats by the crawfish river. The water was streaming fast because of a recent flooding overflow, and the birds were chirping in the distnace. Just me and nature, its what I like best. So I sat there thinking...hard. I have to change the way I persieve things. I have to learn to accept God in my everyday life, but why is that so hard for me?

I guess I'm just rambling on.. I have to get back to my work, and pretend to look busy. Have a great Tuesday everyone!

I am so mad right now!

I had moeny stolen from my room this afternoon. I don't have a job...well I can't exactely get one either, so this is a big deal for me. I was going it use it all to buy me a new outfi for graduation.

My room was locked. I put some more money in my draw before I left for Intramurals. When I get back from after basketball practice, its gone. The dean said that there will be a random room search early tomorrow morning. I'm like "ya and the last time you did a room search over $200 went missing from one person, and they never found it." (said it to myself)

I'm very frusterated. The only people who have the keys are the Resident Assistants and deans. My draws were ajar, a yellow confidential envelope was open and on my desk -where it wasn't before, and obviously the money was missing. The dean said they did a room check, but hello....moeny still gone!!!


GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!


Someone, please give me patients and wisdom to deal with this.

My greatgrandmother has taken ill. She lives in Australia and theres no way that I can go see her. My mum came to my school last night and told me that my grandmother called and said that my great grandmother was in the hospital. Her heart was beating so fast that the doctors couldn't slow it down. They said that no matter what she was going to die. There was nothing left that the docors to do, but wait for her to have a heart attack.The estimated time left for her to live was 30 min to 10 hours. Fortunately she is still in the hospital trying to recover her weak heart. She is only 85. i have been sad all day. I have had attitude problems and I was listening to my ipod outside the dorm and my english teacher took it away. Grrr that made me mad and more upset. So all afternoon i've been trying to get a hold of my family back home to see what the results were. Anxiety sux!!!!!

I want my mum to go back home and say good-bye to her grandma. She was her favorite grandchild.